I know this will sound very weird but I think I make love to the world by photographing it. =P
After the beach shoot, I took some time to think about the reasons as to why I enjoyed it so much. Shooting on that day was fun nonetheless but the actual fun was reviewing the photographs afterwards.
Looking at the beautiful shots I made as well as the drama and the energy contained in them makes me feel happy. I may not have been a part of the actual action in the photographs but I kind of feel as if I’ve been given a glimpse at a private secret between them.
It is very rewarding also to know that the photographs I shot will be taken a shared by those whom I photographed for the sake of memories, at a time when the time in which we all will depart is close to come.
I may not be truly close to all of them but I feel happy that I managed to take a record of a moment in my life during one of the best periods of my late-20s. I may not be in the photographs I took but I know in my heart that there’s a bit of me in every one of those photos.
Viewing the world through my own eyes and then capturing it. Capturing it and then sharing it with those who might be interested. The great feeling of preserving something that in years to come may never exist again.
I may not be the most popular of persons but I sure as hell am happy and content now, when I truly think about it.
Unusually enough, I too have summed up how I actually shoot. I affectionately call my shooting style RTA, which is an abbreviation for the term, Rapid Target Acquisition. =D
Kind of an odd name but I feel that it fits perfectly with the way I am. =)
I kind of prefer event shooting because you know for sure that there is indeed energy in the air and you know that the participants there are all pumped up for a wild day of fun.
Shooting hasnt been always easy for me since I have had a phobia of stares from people when shooting but as I got older and more at peace with myself, I noticed that I didnt care anymore as to what or how people viewed me.
I believe that I finally have accepted myself as to who I am and not try to loathe the person that I wished I were not.
I will take even more photographs simply because I enjoy it and I love looking at my work. I shoot only for my own self-gratification and if others find something they like in my work, then that’s an added bonus.
I will continue to refine my skills and continue shooting like a madman when the oppurtunity presents itself in the future. I may not be the best but that isnt what’s on my mind anymore. I dont care about competing with anymore and showing off my work.
As much as I’d like the attention but I dont want to live my life being unhappy with my work when compared to others. I just want to have fun shooting and keeping the shots that I love.
Much like learning to walk, I will slowly grow to become proficient in the handling and the composition in the weapon of my choice, my camera.
Perhaps someday, it will be possible then to shoot portraits of the one I love in all the splendors and wonders in the world then.
So until that day comes, I’ll refine my skills and be ready for the day when I can finally begin my real shoot.
Until then I guess.
I hope she turns out to be extremely photogenic though, cause that would make my job so much easier. =P
