Farewell CNY…Hello Bananas! =D

In my druken stupor, listening to Andrea Bocelli’s Romanza makes me realize how much I want to fall in love and finally be in a mature, meaning and responsible relationship with someone…

I had thought that I had become hard and stale over this thing called love but…

I guess I was meant to love and be loved by someone…Based on the voices and feelings I feel.

Personally, I think I can live without a companion seeing how much I spent my time alone anyway. As much as I admit to liking this solitude but I do feel quite envious to see others happy and have their feelings reciprocated…

I had a good evening actually, an impromptu dinner and a weird assed spectacle of fireworks has left  me content and happy…For experiencing lost feelings and lost moments…

Plus, the heavy assed liquor, god this cant be good for my health! lol

I want to try harder now…To finally find the one and be completely at peace.

Perhaps then I will be able to vanquish this weird hole I sometimes find in myself…

Perhaps…

Or perhaps I am destined to stay alone for the rest of my life…

I pray not but then again, I am ready to accept such a consequence of a unfulfilled life…

Perhaps.

Perhaps.

God, please forgive me for the sins I’ve committed…

Please…